Here’s another Goddamn kitten pic cuz maybe I’m worth it maybe its mankind, I love author cords t
I mean autocorrect just so tired rn

Hey stress just take me away

Oh this Goddard (god damn) pic is with iPhone I mean wtf so good

2:45 am  •  18 April 2013  •  33 notes

I’m temporarily fostering 4 goddamn kittens. So stressful when paired with full time school and work and now house sitting…. Woah I’m superwoman except that I’m doing bad with all… Only staying sane with Xanax….. Good night

2:38 am  •  18 April 2013

Started to feel drug centric

Took g yesterday because I got molly but he didnt wanna risk the withdrawal for a few weeks after his first withdrawal which is all fine because i want him to stop relying on it so he can see more. So I took some g cuz I got molly but g is like liquid e..now I’m on some Xanax. Wine, pot and ambien and lamictal… I’m thinking about alternative ways to be happy , give the normal college girl life a chance. Maybe I’ll have fun but its low or never. Just addicted to this kind of diZZINESS that I wanted and couldn’t grt from g yesterday so today I wanted it so ambien and I’m feeling it right now

I want to take so many drugs… Shrooms in big sur or acid law Vegas or e in bed…

Food is all over the world. In work at angroceyrr store and that’s enough, so nervous and food and whatnot… Theres drama but mines the most important cuz it isn’t drama.

R is so gorge and tough and silly and self deprecating. I told her about S and seemed like she was hidih a sad… But I wanna tell her that I love watching her work in the creepiest way (lesbians can get away for that)

I feel like r is so close to my closest life in the outside, with doctor visits and things and with her I can gauge mental health with others and if there’s anything going on if its me or those around it. I definitely feel like this is what I hav pretty often just more quiet. Will read more. Should make more art with psych lenses on… It’s what I have, psych life background and stuff

This is my fav part about ambien is this chatter I won’t remember in the morning even tho I know now maybe not…..

It’s my favorite dizzy with no pain, just hi

I’m such a klepto lately too. It isn’t that bad but it’s getting into my lower morals to what I’m taking it. But work is so boring is what I have to give myself dopamine hits to stay awake. Need better versions than this.

5:07 am  •  6 April 2013

edrecoveryprobs:

2:17 pm  •  4 April 2013  •  304 notes

I dream of a kitchen aid for all of the food I can make and not eat

I want to gash myself so bad………………. For a few weeks now….. It’s so hard to hold it in. My one true addiction I think. I can hurt myself for hours and not even worry that so much time has passed. When you hurt yourself you don’t even care that you’re hurting yourself.

And if I tell people snything… They will watch me until I eat and tell me to make art about it. But really I just want to make pretty girls to look at. Buuhhh

Can bf turn into a girl for like 6 months? That’d be nice and I don’t have to worry about this whole poly issue

Also I’m eating a lot and need to probably exercise cuz I’m getting plush… Made out of pudding… Ick….

Gashes gashes we all fall down

3:46 am  •  4 April 2013

Had glass stuck in my toe all day. Was wondering why it hurt. Now I have a toe hole

3:39 pm  •  24 March 2013

Nope, nothing’s going to happen anymore and I’m filled with jealousy so it’s the worst of both worlds. Fuck.

And I just looked over thinking he was still sleeping next to me and it seems like he’s been gone for a while.

2:20 pm  •  13 March 2013

Fuck yeah!

Also like everyone I know is gay? I made 2 more lesbian friends today and one asked me if I wanted to play and the other is goooerrrrrrgeioys. I know cuz I said she looked like Dana from the L word.

I work at a grocery store where 9/10 out of is are girl-lovin and the last one is religious and never had a bf so who knows!

All I know is that I am making my own L Word group of friends and I’m even in Santa Monica. Didn’t even realize I was prepping my entire up to be so gay.

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

5:09 am  •  12 March 2013

Shoo I’m crazy

Part of an email:

“Also, I don’t know if I told you yet but, kissing you was really nice.”

Omg great news

5:00 am  •  12 March 2013

I’m having doubts now. I texted her to come over on Friday and she never responded. I know she likes me and she’s afraid of something and doesn’t want to go further unless she was drunk I’m guessing. She was when she got with F. I think she’s straighter than she thinks.
I don’t think I can have her, and she’s constantly having others. I’m starting to feel jealous but that’s so wrong of me. I won’t get anywhere feeling jealous.
It was just so nice to kiss her and spoon her. I just wish she wanted it when she was sober…

2:09 pm  •  11 March 2013